England’s Monty Panesar says he has learned to accept he needs medication to help him deal with mental illness.
The 34-year-old spinner sought medical advice to cope with feelings of anxiety and paranoia which stemmed from a loss of confidence and self-esteem.
He was prescribed medication but now admits his reluctance to take this contributed to his problem.
“I went on medication and it calmed things down in my mind and took way the symptoms of being paranoid,” he said.
“I didn’t believe in medication. I have been brought up to say it isn’t good for you. There are always side effects to every medication you take.’
Northamptonshire’s Panesar is targeting an England recall after three years out of the Test side.
He was released by Essex at the end of the 2015 season after off-field “issues”, and later admitted to mental health issues.
Panesar added: “The people who were helping me did see a change. They said to me it would it take three to six months to get back to where I need to be.
“You have got to take one step at a time and be patient with the whole process and eventually have the faith that things will get better.”
‘It is important to open up’
Panesar, who has taken 167 wickets in 50 Tests, the last in Melbourne during the Ashes in 2013, is now trying to use his experiences to work as a mental health ambassador for the Professional Cricketers Association (PCA).
“The signs that you can spot in other people in a dressing room is if they are very isolated and don’t engage with the whole team,” he told BBC Sport.
“On away trips if you are going for team meals are they just going back to their room and ordering room service?
“It’s really important when you feel down that you engage with other human beings and you speak to other people about it.
“Once a cricketer gets isolated they are signs that you really should look after that person.
“As sportspeople you pride yourself on being mentally strong and ruthless, all the attributes that lead to competitive performance.
“But when you have a weakness in you, you don’t really want to open up to it. You always want to show that you are strong.
“The quicker you open up the quicker you will get the support and the help.”
‘Better people equals better cricketers’
The PCA believes more cricketers are taking issues of personal welfare and development seriously.
It says there has been a vast increase in the number of players using the programme it offers over the past decade, but issues are especially apparent when cricketers retire.
According to a new survey, nearly all cricketers say they struggle when their careers finish with some 16 per cent experiencing feelings of depression and despair in the first year after retiring.
The survey also found that almost a third of past players said they did not feel in control of their lives two years after playing.
The PCA would like to see more cricket welfare managers in the country to deal with these kinds of issues.
Jason Ratcliffe, assistant chief executive at the PCA, says: “We have a duty to create more resilient and confident people, something which should also ensure better performing cricketers.
“In turn this should lead to a better product to sell to broadcasters and spectators, ultimately creating more income for the game. Better people equals better cricketers.”