Ronda Rousey appeared on “The Ellen DeGeneres Show” to talk about her UFC loss to Holly Holm. She revealed the loss was so difficult that she had suicidal thoughts afterwards.
Rousey told Ellen she felt a loss of her identity:
“Honestly, my thought, I was like down in the medical room in the corner and I was like, ‘What am I anymore if I’m not this?’ I was literally sitting there thinking about killing myself at that exact second,” Rousey explained while fighting back tears. “I’m like, ‘I’m nothing. What do I do anymore? No one gives a s— about me anymore without this.’”
She credits her boyfriend Travis Browne with helping her through the emotionally tasking time. She also says she plans to have a family with Browne. Ronda says:
“To be honest, I looked up and saw that my man Travis was standing there and I looked up at him and was just like, ‘I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive,’” she said with a laugh. “I was thinking I was meant to have him when I was at my lowest. I wouldn’t have made it without him.”
The episode aired on Tuesday.
Rousey has since returned to fighting after disappearing from the public immediately after the loss. After the Holm fight, Rousey said her mouth and teeth suffered so much damage that she thought, “It might be 3 to 6 months before I can eat an apple, let alone take an impact.”
She’s expected to fight Holm again in the near future.