Recently, I have been re-introduced to my son. Last time I saw him he was just 18. Now my boy is 20 years old and as handsome as ever. After not seeing him for almost two years I got to talk to him and give him a hug. This was really one of my happiest days that I can remember. Definitely in one of my top 5.
Previous to this, the last time I saw my son things were not good. We parted on not such good terms and didn’t even have much in the way of communication for a long time. After about a year we started texting each other periodically and things became a little more comfortable but still we had not really talked. A few weeks ago he texted me and we got together. I’ve seen him a few times now and each time I get to end our visits with a hug. Those hugs mean so much to me. And to hear “I love you Mom”, that is music to my ears.
As any mother knows, it isn’t easy raising kids. You do your best to take care of them from the time they are infants ’till the time they are……..ok, it never ends. You try to keep your kids happy, safe, and fed. You do your best to guide them into their teenage years by loving them and teaching them respect. As much as I hate to say it, there is a point where you have to set them free. To just watch your child walk away and go on his own. Well, I did just that and it was hard. But, as I’m finding out, my son has done a great job growing up. We haven’t talked too much in details of his life but he seems ok. I hope that time we will grow a little more close. All growing up I felt like he and I were close. Maybe it was me asking a TON of questions but he would answer them. He would elaborate and I got to hear about his friends and music and such. To wait for him to open up, I would’ve gone gray. Maybe I was ‘annoying’ at times but that is how I was able to check on him and see how he was doing.
My son has just informed me that he will be moving away. Not too far, especially in this day of electronics and cell phones, but just far enough that I won’t be able to see him very often. I’m hoping we can keep in contact more often and maybe he’ll even offer up some details of his life. What do you think?
To him I may just be the lady that bossed him around as a kid and told him to do things that he didn’t want to do, but I hope that one day he will realize that I am the lady that raised him from day one and watched him grow and learn and gave him all of my love.
Son, you outgrew my lap, but never my heart. ~Author Unknown